I would like to go to bed at the end of the day feeling that I accomplished what was needed for the day. I would like to sleep soundly and wake refreshed. I want to begin the day with no decision more important than whether to wear a white shirt or black. It would be so nice to have coffee outside with the hummingbirds and walk in the park to a bench in the shade where I could sit with a book and enjoy a soft breeze.
I want to clean my house and bake fresh bread with no thought of things outside my walls. I want to meet new people and like them and be liked by them. To be comfortable in the knowledge that I am loved. To dance and jump rope and play games and laugh; laugh with abandon. To have the pleasure of childhood in my adult world. This business of being grown up is not working out as well as one might hope.
Therein lies the problem. Adulthood. The part of life with responsibilities and obligations. Adults have bills to pay, jobs to do, families to care for, communities to be a part of , standards to uphold. I seem to have done adulthood fairly well with an occasional slip-up now and then. Most days I don’t mind it, even enjoy it. And, really, I would not be a child again even if I could. Once through each of the stages of this life is enough for me.