via Daily Prompt: Forlorn Today’s daily prompt fits my current emotional state perfectly. Certainly feeling forlorn today. Kind of at loose ends and trying to find something to hold on too so that I don’t get blown away by the next wind. It’s just too much effort to really care about anything and all I really want to do is sleep or just hide in a corner away from everybody. I can’t completely claim forlorn though because the very definition of forlorn is hopeless and I am never totally hopeless. What I am is sad and I miss my daughter, my buddy who would have said do what you need to do mom. You deserve a day off.
There are people I could call, shoulders I could cry on. But what kind of selfish asshole does that? So, say I call up a friend and cry like a baby and rant and rave about how unfair life is and on and on and on so that I bring them down from the happy place they may be in. Would I feel better? Maybe briefly. But not for long and my friend would be sharing the sadness. Right now I am not doing that. Maybe tomorrow if I need to I will call but right now I can just carry this load myself.